Thinking thinking

There is so many thing going through my mind right now. About my work, my free time and what I'm going to do in future.

It all happen when I know my manager (now ex) resigned because she want to become a full time care taker for her children. I know it will have a big impact to the business/ company, I had my mind prepared for the new manager. But it seems like a nightmare since she came.

No doubt she is very professional because of all the experience she had the network she have, but I'm not sure whether is my mind having the "refuse to change" symptoms or I just don't agree about her management style. All she said was for our own good, you won't appreciate me now but you will appreciate me in 6 month down the road. Hey man, you came here for 2 days and you expect me to believe that?

And my Company culture is like evolving from bad to worst. Everyone in the Company is no longer that harmony, freedom is lacking. People are getting cruel, back stabbing each other. Fighting for sales, making report to get favouritism. Hey the company is not multi million dollar company, what can you get!? Geez.. what happen to the teamwork environment?

I felt so stress to work in this environment, not knowing what will happen to me everyday. Have to focus on my job now><!

work impression

Its been quite sometime since I blog again. It's also the first time I ever work in the same Company for so long and yet didn't feel like quitting. Because I got progression, I see a glimpse of future of mine in this Company. Not that I'm going to stay in this Company forever, but I see that I can learn how to become a full flesh consultant. 

Things aren't going smoothly all the time, but recently I felt that I'm so alone in the Company. Many people start leaving the Company because of their own personal reasons. I'm okay with that actually because they don't direct affect my job, just that the Company will look more empty. 

However, there are people that keep getting on my nerves, but hey! we don't expect people to be at your level all the time right? People say I'm very patient, able to withstand shitty people. But the truth is 0 fuck was given :) In this Company I can see the various type of human behaviour, the good the bad the ugly. Whoever can perform having high sales figure might not be as good as in their attitude. Whoever aren't able to have the sales figure doesn't really means that person is not a good consultant/ candidate. After all it all comes to luck as well. 

I have chosen this path as my career. I wanted to be a consultant and I am on the way to become one. Yes my title is consultant now, a recruitment consultant to be exact. But I felt there is still so much more to learn. My knowledge is shallow but my hope and expectation is big. Time to work hard Danny Boy! 

Starting my life as a consultant

Last thursday was my first step/day to become a consultant. I had training for my last whole week, however it doesn't really cover anything technical. In fact all the training is about skills/ attitude. For me is more like a psychology class instead of a proper training, but I couldn't find anything irrelevant to my life to become a great consultant.

Firstly is all about the attitude, idea for being a consultant you must have passion for your job. But then again, for whatever thing you are going to do in this world you need that passion/ determination. And the trainer/big boss also mention that we must be a person that LOVE people especially when you are in a industry of managing people. I find it kinda odd, how do you define LOVE in this? Could it means that I need passionate of helping people to get jobs?

Anyway, attitude does plays a big part in a Company, everyone wish to hired something who is passionate enough in what they are doing, from my perspective it's because these are the people that doesn't really care what you throw as them as long they finish their work. *cost saving*

Another thing that they really stress on is the word you use in your conversation, let there be same meaning but different words use at different occasion will lead to different ending/ thinking. This is crucial to get attention from your respective clients. Recommend, Suggest, Proposed are powerful words that makes your mind suddenly open up to listen without even you noticing it.

Anyway is just my first 2 days, I seriously hope that I can learn more from my day to day job. And of course seeking my passion is one of the major factor too.

sharing business ideas

I had many different type of friends in this world but most of them are my ex-coursemate a.k.a business student. To be honest, most of my time spend with my friends are chit chatting about how's work, how's life etc. All the how how you can think of we share it. Well, it's actually pretty normal kind of conversation, but I got this bunch of friend who I usually chat differently among the rest. We usually chat about business opportunities.

They always let me with great ideas and opportunities, makes me felt that they are actually a much greater world outside of what I am having now. Ways of getting more money etc. Sharing business ideas from what I understand is actually pretty good and also a great way to broaden your perspective. I seriously appreciated what they shared with me. And hopefully one day I might use the knowledge that I gain to open up my own business. To be listed down as a successful business man :)

A whole new beginning start with a hole.

I finally given up with my current job. High pay, super flexible work time. Yes, I had given all up for something that I felt that I'm more capable of. To work as a consultant :) But is this consultant the one that I long for? Only time will tell but seriously I don't think I'm able to risk for working for another company for just few months. 

The hole I'm about to discuss here is this. The financial strain. My previous job gave me a whopping RM2.8k per month, on top of that I got an mileage claim ranging from 600-900 for the 3 month I work. It is quite a big number for a fresh grad like me. And now of course people doesn't want to pay back the same amount when I look for other jobs. Which I think you all are pretty aware of why.

Even I only work a couple of months at the Bank, I do felt that I'm pretty used to have higher income monthly. Few days ago I finally draft out what are my fixed spending monthly. My car loans, study loans, transportation etc. It actually ate up 70% of my salary. 

For now I think I just have to live with such income, experience is what I should be looking forward to. And in the meantime, let just hope something pop up into my head and I should have a side income of at least RM1k per month as a start. Hardwork here I come!! 

Giving it all!

Today when I was playing futsal with my friend. Suddenly something struck me in the head so hard, that I realise that in my 22 *going 23* years of my life I haven't once give out all I have for something that I am really passionate about.

Yes, I love to play football/ futsal but I never once really run the hell out from me, doing sliding tackle ,diving saves. Nope! never once, I always have some holding me back. I don't want to get injured, I don't want to have much commitment, I don't want to run so much etc.

I had always say that I don't like this I don't like that. After that I regretted for my decision. Now I want to have a change! Before I even say that I'm giving up, I must question myself have I really tried my best? Well that is some thought of the day. I'm writing this down to remind myself of my thought. Else this thinking will just gone into the drain :)

Sound is the new trend?

It's been awhile since I blog about audio stuff. But as days gone by, I saw there is a trend of people carrying a headphone on the go. It makes me think is there an on going trend for hipster? Because it looks cool?

For sure, I don't think most of them value the music quality. Because they most of them uses Beats By Dr. Dre. It looked decent and cool no doubt about that. But the sound quality doesn't much justified it's price. And the price is sky high!!

Today I went to Sennheiser shop in KL. Promoted what I'm selling and end up the person in charge is not in *Awhhh* then I had a little chat with the sales person. He told me there is an research done by someone, it shows other digital product's price had been becoming cheaper and cheaper but not for audio stuff. People used to pay very low price for a mid range headphone, but now RM200-500 are called cheap/affordable mid range headphone.

Perhaps it all comes down to the type of life people are facing now. Stressful lifestyle might need something to ease down the tense in their daily life. Music does help to relax down, maybe that why people earning big bucks willing to pay for all these equipment.

For me, yes I started to look/feel my music few years back. Because of Beats By Dr Dre! Now I'm still in dilemma on which headphone should I buy. I AM living in a stressful life though.