Starting my life as a consultant

Last thursday was my first step/day to become a consultant. I had training for my last whole week, however it doesn't really cover anything technical. In fact all the training is about skills/ attitude. For me is more like a psychology class instead of a proper training, but I couldn't find anything irrelevant to my life to become a great consultant.

Firstly is all about the attitude, idea for being a consultant you must have passion for your job. But then again, for whatever thing you are going to do in this world you need that passion/ determination. And the trainer/big boss also mention that we must be a person that LOVE people especially when you are in a industry of managing people. I find it kinda odd, how do you define LOVE in this? Could it means that I need passionate of helping people to get jobs?

Anyway, attitude does plays a big part in a Company, everyone wish to hired something who is passionate enough in what they are doing, from my perspective it's because these are the people that doesn't really care what you throw as them as long they finish their work. *cost saving*

Another thing that they really stress on is the word you use in your conversation, let there be same meaning but different words use at different occasion will lead to different ending/ thinking. This is crucial to get attention from your respective clients. Recommend, Suggest, Proposed are powerful words that makes your mind suddenly open up to listen without even you noticing it.

Anyway is just my first 2 days, I seriously hope that I can learn more from my day to day job. And of course seeking my passion is one of the major factor too.

sharing business ideas

I had many different type of friends in this world but most of them are my ex-coursemate a.k.a business student. To be honest, most of my time spend with my friends are chit chatting about how's work, how's life etc. All the how how you can think of we share it. Well, it's actually pretty normal kind of conversation, but I got this bunch of friend who I usually chat differently among the rest. We usually chat about business opportunities.

They always let me with great ideas and opportunities, makes me felt that they are actually a much greater world outside of what I am having now. Ways of getting more money etc. Sharing business ideas from what I understand is actually pretty good and also a great way to broaden your perspective. I seriously appreciated what they shared with me. And hopefully one day I might use the knowledge that I gain to open up my own business. To be listed down as a successful business man :)

A whole new beginning start with a hole.

I finally given up with my current job. High pay, super flexible work time. Yes, I had given all up for something that I felt that I'm more capable of. To work as a consultant :) But is this consultant the one that I long for? Only time will tell but seriously I don't think I'm able to risk for working for another company for just few months. 

The hole I'm about to discuss here is this. The financial strain. My previous job gave me a whopping RM2.8k per month, on top of that I got an mileage claim ranging from 600-900 for the 3 month I work. It is quite a big number for a fresh grad like me. And now of course people doesn't want to pay back the same amount when I look for other jobs. Which I think you all are pretty aware of why.

Even I only work a couple of months at the Bank, I do felt that I'm pretty used to have higher income monthly. Few days ago I finally draft out what are my fixed spending monthly. My car loans, study loans, transportation etc. It actually ate up 70% of my salary. 

For now I think I just have to live with such income, experience is what I should be looking forward to. And in the meantime, let just hope something pop up into my head and I should have a side income of at least RM1k per month as a start. Hardwork here I come!! 

Giving it all!

Today when I was playing futsal with my friend. Suddenly something struck me in the head so hard, that I realise that in my 22 *going 23* years of my life I haven't once give out all I have for something that I am really passionate about.

Yes, I love to play football/ futsal but I never once really run the hell out from me, doing sliding tackle ,diving saves. Nope! never once, I always have some holding me back. I don't want to get injured, I don't want to have much commitment, I don't want to run so much etc.

I had always say that I don't like this I don't like that. After that I regretted for my decision. Now I want to have a change! Before I even say that I'm giving up, I must question myself have I really tried my best? Well that is some thought of the day. I'm writing this down to remind myself of my thought. Else this thinking will just gone into the drain :)

Sound is the new trend?

It's been awhile since I blog about audio stuff. But as days gone by, I saw there is a trend of people carrying a headphone on the go. It makes me think is there an on going trend for hipster? Because it looks cool?

For sure, I don't think most of them value the music quality. Because they most of them uses Beats By Dr. Dre. It looked decent and cool no doubt about that. But the sound quality doesn't much justified it's price. And the price is sky high!!

Today I went to Sennheiser shop in KL. Promoted what I'm selling and end up the person in charge is not in *Awhhh* then I had a little chat with the sales person. He told me there is an research done by someone, it shows other digital product's price had been becoming cheaper and cheaper but not for audio stuff. People used to pay very low price for a mid range headphone, but now RM200-500 are called cheap/affordable mid range headphone.

Perhaps it all comes down to the type of life people are facing now. Stressful lifestyle might need something to ease down the tense in their daily life. Music does help to relax down, maybe that why people earning big bucks willing to pay for all these equipment.

For me, yes I started to look/feel my music few years back. Because of Beats By Dr Dre! Now I'm still in dilemma on which headphone should I buy. I AM living in a stressful life though.

Another day outside of my comfort zone.

I wish to share here not to the public but to let my future self to have a look back at what have I done.

Today is just like ordinary day for anyone, *MONDAY BLUE*. But not quite for a person that struggling for his daily job. Not daring to meet up with people, dealing with rejection, Alone, depression you name it. But still a job is a job, even when I did not do anything I still need to show my boss my pretty face.

Today I found out something that is going to give me a huge impact on my depression, not getting better but worst from it. Previous week, out of a sudden the head of the department asked me to prepare for a lecture/discussion on what have I done for the whole week. I was like okay, at least my problem can be discuss with them, maybe I should let them know I'm struggling mentally. Fast forward to today, it actually turn out not they wanted to help me deal with problems but to monitor my movement.

I was placed to sit next to the head of department on my 2nd day of work. Not a good place if you asked me. And I do not know what can I do the whole day, should I just go door to door asking people? but where should I go? To the place I familiar with? That is just like 3 places I'm familiar with and poof! I ran out of ideas. Cold calling? Seriously I hate doing that, I'm afraid of calling people by the phone. The chill run through my spine.

I just hope that I got the chance to tell them, this is really not what I am good at. Nope! not at all! In fact those are what I least good at. God everyday I'm in depression I felt like crying everyday. I felt like a nobody in the office, I have no one to talk to. Worst of all, even my dear say I'm always a sour face. Bring back my smile this instance!!

Stepping out of my comfort zone

I had been jobless for almost 4 months. It lead me into desperation to get into any job. I doesn't care whether I am suitable or not for the job I just want something that makes me busy during weekday and pay me a decent salary at month end. Seems simple until I got myself into a job I had never ever dreamt of being in it. Working in a bank doing sales.

A little background of why I didn't dream of doing these. Firstly I never like to be in banking industry. Yes, many people had told me how good the salary are and the benefit they give are top notch. Indeed those words are really true, their client base are so huge that everyone in the nation need to have their service. But then again, I always want to have my own business, and opening a Bank is not an easy thing to do. I prefer to make my life simple and less involvement in playing with other's saving.

Second is the sales line. To everyone that knows me well, I do not speak often, I am never a conversation starter and I doesn't like to force people into doing something. You might say that doing sales doesn't force people into doing something, but sales person does force people to listen to you when you promoting stuff that they already have/ doesn't need.

Seriously, doing something that you are not good at, not your nature is stressful. I felt out of place in my workplace. In the bank you are not provided with your own PC, and no internet connection at all. In all my life time *23 years of it* I had been so used to looking and finding information through the internet. The best part is! My senior expect me to go home and search for contacts for me to have cold call. What if I do not have any internet access in my home?!

I do not enjoy stepping out from my comfort zone. Most of the time when I'm doing door to door sales, I will end up sitting somewhere alone, thinking Oh God! What have I done to my life, why do I want to challenge and I end up in teary eye. Seriously I can't take this anymore, I am not progressing. For once in my life, I felt that I am totally not up to the job. I want to quit!

This actually prove my theory wrong. I always believe that people are actually good at everything they did if they try. It doesn't seems like the case with me. All the time I think that I'm more suitable for a consultant job and until know I still think that I am one. Back office most of the time travel here and there occasionally, telling people what should they do instead of telling them buy my product :)

Oh well... I just have to wait for the one chance that they going to give me to join a business consultation job :( back to my drawing board!