I had been jobless for almost 4 months. It lead me into desperation to get into any job. I doesn't care whether I am suitable or not for the job I just want something that makes me busy during weekday and pay me a decent salary at month end. Seems simple until I got myself into a job I had never ever dreamt of being in it. Working in a bank doing sales.
A little background of why I didn't dream of doing these. Firstly I never like to be in banking industry. Yes, many people had told me how good the salary are and the benefit they give are top notch. Indeed those words are really true, their client base are so huge that everyone in the nation need to have their service. But then again, I always want to have my own business, and opening a Bank is not an easy thing to do. I prefer to make my life simple and less involvement in playing with other's saving.
Second is the sales line. To everyone that knows me well, I do not speak often, I am never a conversation starter and I doesn't like to force people into doing something. You might say that doing sales doesn't force people into doing something, but sales person does force people to listen to you when you promoting stuff that they already have/ doesn't need.
Seriously, doing something that you are not good at, not your nature is stressful. I felt out of place in my workplace. In the bank you are not provided with your own PC, and no internet connection at all. In all my life time *23 years of it* I had been so used to looking and finding information through the internet. The best part is! My senior expect me to go home and search for contacts for me to have cold call. What if I do not have any internet access in my home?!
I do not enjoy stepping out from my comfort zone. Most of the time when I'm doing door to door sales, I will end up sitting somewhere alone, thinking Oh God! What have I done to my life, why do I want to challenge and I end up in teary eye. Seriously I can't take this anymore, I am not progressing. For once in my life, I felt that I am totally not up to the job. I want to quit!
This actually prove my theory wrong. I always believe that people are actually good at everything they did if they try. It doesn't seems like the case with me. All the time I think that I'm more suitable for a consultant job and until know I still think that I am one. Back office most of the time travel here and there occasionally, telling people what should they do instead of telling them buy my product :)
Oh well... I just have to wait for the one chance that they going to give me to join a business consultation job :( back to my drawing board!
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